I know it might seem counterproductive to talk about food on a plan where I only eat "real" food once a day but I had an enlightening moment last night. As I sat there eating my turkey burger with laughing cow cheese and salad with light Italian dressing I caught myself moaning. Not a "Oh god why me!! Why do I have to eat this stuff" more of a "I would do dirty things to this food if it were morally acceptable" moan. It was like I was tasting the most succulent dish at the fanciest restaurant in town. And it was only turkey burgers!! What gives? I have a few theories on the matter..care to hear them?(well your going to whether you like it or not so prepare yourself)
1. I have lost my damn mind (not totally far off if you know me)
2. My taste buds have decided to join forces with my mind and go AWOL.
3. When you haven't had real food all day long and you finally get something fresh you can't help but enjoy every millisecond of it.
While I enjoy theories 1 & 2 myself I have a feeling its much closer to number 3. And I am thrilled about that. It has truly been a long time since I have enjoyed my food. For the past few months I had noticed that I no longer really even tasted food. It was merely there to keep that ugly voice inside at bay. Similar (yet again) to when smoking became more about MUST have rather than want. Yet another driving force behind this life change(notice I don't say diet and I never will since that isn't what I am doing). I would like to be the one in the drivers seat not the ugly voice (I would like to name that voice and I am open to any suggestions).
So yes last night was a revelation and I look forward to many more meals where I can moan until the neighbors are screaming KEEP IT DOWN IN THERE!.